something to look forward to.

January 21, 2009, 10:56 pm
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today has been one of the most stressful days i’ve had in awhile, and definitely the most stressful over break. from the second i woke up this morning, there was an inkling that i was going to pay for something. [god knows what, i keep track of my karma as much as possible, but i never know what i did wrong when days like this pop up.]
i promised myself that this wouldn’t be a place for ranting and raving about my life, but today was exceptional. i think i almost had a nervous breakdown. i really managed to nearly drive myself insane. i honestly should have given up halfway through and then maybe, just maybe, i would have been alright. the paper is such a huge weight right now [no pun intended] — i’ve had to take off the rest of the night, even though my brother is flying in to the city tomorrow night [yay!]. i should be doing work but all i can think about right now is this grinding, persistent headache i’ve had all day.
i just hope that aaron coming tomorrow night will take some of the edge off and keep me playing tour guide instead of editor. i just need to take a breath of fresh air tonight before i hit the sack and hopefully, just maybe, i can get enough inspiration in me to confront everything in the morning.