something to look forward to.

okay, lets try this again.
July 29, 2009, 9:55 pm
Filed under: Uncategorized

hold your breath.
life is fast and its hard to keep up if you spend even an ounce of time the wrong way. here’s how i’ve been spending it:

updating my ipod frequently, buying a blender, drinking kombucha, sun ra, buying new jewelry, mending relationships with my parents, cooking myself thin, finally getting internet, true blood, walking around for way too long by myself, sneaking bulleit manhattans when i shouldn’t be drinking, sneaking looks at you and just when i think i’ve been looking too much you turn and smile, charlotte, no more coffee only tea, trying to write but not feeling inspired, the dead weather, fitting into all my clothes really strangely, being awesome and helping stu win best of the bay, new headphones, cheating on my diet but not really gaining weight back, saving money, putting my ipod on shuffle, being alone, singing to myself in the shower when i’m home alone, spending time with people who have broken my heart, sudden storms of hopelessness, being paranoid about [X]press, falling in love with friends all over again, telling myself the truth to cushion the blow that i know is coming…

i’ve been in my own head a lot because of blowing up, [X]press Issue #1 looming over my head, trying to stay focused on this diet and learning to grow the fuck up and speak up when i want something.

too bad i’m getting the creeping feeling its not mine to be had.

Drinking whiskey reminds me of you
You’re the first in ages to have gotten through
I know you mean well, yes I know that you do
But sooner or later you’re going to break me in two
Were my pupils dilated?
Could you tell that I liked you?
We were so unlikely
You flirt with an ex, put me to the test though
And still I want to tell you that I love you the best
We turned the radiators on and there was no way back
Did you knowi'm always looking back at you.
You had The Plough star trail on your back?
Your voice is quiet but I need it loud
In the night you went up
And in the morning you went down
And it’s like you to forbid me to say goodnight
I had your brown eyes and limbs
On me through the night
These words are weak and to your dislike
But you’ll never believe them so I guess it’s alright

Do you like the view I show you?
Oh I say look at the light
Do you still miss the way that I hold you?
In other towns and cities
Who’s holding you tonight?

The dresses came out of the bag then the tears came
And drinking has never been the same again
I shared your trouble, I shared your weight
I lost it with you today
And we don’t share a birthday we do share a sign
And we shared something or was it in my mind
There was talk of love and how I need it back
I’d be better for you than that last love of mine

Do you like the view I show you?
I say look at the light
Do you still miss the way that I hold you?
Oh, in other towns and cities
Who’s holding you tonight?
You’re in another town or city
You mean nothing to me tonight.

“other towns and cities”
camera obscura

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